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Re: Veronica

Post by SteveS » Fri Nov 01, 2019 7:35 am

Veronica, all we can do when faced with symbolism which worries us is to try and prepare the best we can in the manner with our choices in how we choose to react to the symbolism when we see it manifesting. An astrologer never knows specifics how angular SSR symbolism will manifest, only its possible tones.

FWIW, looking at your next SSR and understanding some of the angered situations which are currently occurring in your immediate environment, when you see these possible angered situations begin to manifest---try to walk away from em in order to minimize the anger. Since you would be the only one involved in a possible angered situation who understands the symbolism of your SSR, you would be the only one to have better choices how you would choose to react to a possible disputed/angered situation. Normally, an astrologer can examine closely their immediate environments and understand the possibilities how their next SSR with angular symbolism may manifest. Foreknowledge with our SSRs helps us plan and prepare for certain possibilities within our immediate environments.

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Re: Veronica

Post by Avshalom Binyamin » Fri Nov 01, 2019 12:19 pm

Veronica, I'm looking at a Mars-Saturn themed demilunar in a week, after a lovely Venus-filled lunar return. And my first instinct was "oh shit!"

But then I realized that I have plans to go to San Francisco the morning after my demilunar, to go dance in a tango marathon for the weekend. Mars-Saturn is struggle, and I will be exerting myself significantly, and going literally nowhere in the process. :lol:

Hitting the gym is miserable hardship. But that doesn't mean it's bad, or doesn't also feel nice in it's own way (especially the sense of relief and well-being when it's over!).

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Post by Veronica » Sat Nov 02, 2019 6:07 pm

I’ve spent the past three days now between 3 different hospitals (my father was transferred from one to a different one so he could get a shot in his eye bc he became blind last Monday)…..lots of travel time and thinking and feeling about things.

My daughter and I have this thing that we “Grilled Cheese.” Its funny in a way how a mother, being presented with a newborn baby some how becomes in tune with that child and intuits and understands what that baby needs, with out the child ever speaking. I recall how before my son would wake as a newborn, hungry….my breasts would swell and leak. Id be sitting on the couch and all of sudden you feel the pulling sensation and throbbing and then the milk comes, and moments later the babe is crying to be fed when you swore it was sleeping. You some how anticipate in some almost psychic way the needs of others. We call it Grilled Cheese in my house because one day I was driving home and talking to my kids about what I was going to cook for dinner because I had been thinking about it all day….grilled cheese…..and my daughter was like SHUT UP I was wishing for grilled cheese all day. I have a million examples of how this sort of anticipation of needs pops up in my life, through strange dreams or visions or words said by strangers or an idea that just seems to pop out of the blue. I attribute that to my moon/Neptune/Jupiter conjunction being aspected by my sun and Pluto.

I think for me though that Pluto plays a much bigger picture in my life then I really give it credit for. Jim did list it first when he shared his interpretation of my natal horoscope, and I know he know what he is talking about, even if I’m not always ready to process and assimilate his (and all you other A+ Sidereal Astrologers here) meaning and perspective. Pluto is the ultimate for healing and bringing about healing, and all my life has been enmeshed with different modes of healing, myself and others. I do have training as a Holistic Healthcare Provider, and Yoga teacher and Death and Dying, as well as my training in library science which helps me book the right book in the hand of the patron needing it. I comes very naturally to me, and is something that I enjoy sharing with others in what ever way they may need. It is though a bit hard for me to discern sometimes what it is that I myself need for healing. I think partly because my Angular Pluto says, I’m Fine I don’t need anything, but also My Sun square Neptune which makes me have a vanity and disillusioned sense of self that makes it challenging for me to Heal myself because I don’t see anything really wrong. Until of course I get punched in the head. Good thing I have a very thick skull even though my skin is so thin.

After the horrid day getting the news of my sisters cancer, and all the fear and sadness and turmoil that I went through thinking about what her loss would bring to my nieces and nephews and family as a whole, and myself especially as she is my best friend and surrogate mother and partner in crime and my biggest cheerleader, I vented and ranted about my fears of this upcoming SSR and what I had been struggling with symbolically about that. JSAD I am so very thankful that you delicately took the time to explain the actual workings going on with that and I especially resonated with your language about releasing Martian energies. That made such sense to me, as Neptune has been draining and draining on my mars, as I am healing from my accident and had been laid up and in a very real way not able to be as physical as I wanted. I took your previous advice and was a patient/ am being a patient. I stopped pushing and doing yoga and things that while I wanted to do them, were making the healing process impossible. So I walked, and walked and walked and walked and by my calculation I have walked to Washington DC and back, at least, which is a far way to walk. I’ve wanted and wanted and wanted to do so much more, but even lifting my arms up to shoulder height was excruciating. But I knew that the only way to heal was to rest, and that this was MY time to rest and if I didn’t take advantage of that I would suffer more in the long run.

My fears for next year with Mars on the angle is mostly projection from what is going on around me, but also from my thinking that Ive never had This aspect in my life before and so it would be an experience or event that I had never had. I’ve worked out hardcore before. I’ve gone to the gym and busted my aff, and ran and swam and did push ups and hula hooped and tons of physical stuff, my whole life and to think that Id have a year of some physicality seemed to me to be an opportunity for the universe to again punch me in the head when I think things are going good. I mean my charts for the next few months seem pretty upbeat and good and like I have ridden the beast of Saturn and survived and thrived in a way and come out not physically disfigured or maimed or hating people and in a place to have healthy loving relationships.

I know that I repeat myself, and talk about things that I have already tried to talk about and sound like a broken record about some things, and I do appreciate you all not saying….um you already told us about that……its because it take me a while to really process and digest things and integrate them and understand them and be able to use that understanding. Its human too….I have heard my father tell the same story of me playing with my diaper a million times…he hates dirty diapers….so we repeat and repeat things until they no longer affect us.

Like relationship issues, and people forming relationship bonds with the same sort of people over and over and over. they think that moving from one person to the next is going to be different, but they themselves have never worked through some sort of issue, trial, test, lesson, ect and so they just keep getting more of the same, even though at first the other may seem totally different.

I packed a bag yesterday to bring with me to visit my sister. She is looking at a prolonged hospital stay and so I wanted her to be as comfy and happy and in a good mindset and not feeling like she is in a hospital room with no personality or character and just another number. She’s not another number to us, and with her sun/mars conjunction (also conjunct Jupiter…..hence she is a Queen in her own realm) she needs to feel special. No one can make people feel special like I can. I have this innate ability like I said above to intuit what someone may need, and then give it to them.
So I packed up my Mary Poppins bag and me and my daughter went out to spend the day with her. Knowing that in my sisters mind, receiving the news that she had cancer and just may well be dying, I wasn’t about to let her sit in her room with her Virgo mind and dwell on all that all by herself. My sisters have a talent of buying me the most beautiful and wonderful and just what I needed presents. Something about that sun/mars thing they got working maybe because they nail it every time, buying me beautiful clothes and jewelry and lavish things that I love but would never practically buy for myself. They spoil me, these sun/mars people I have….not one present from them have I parted with in all my Saturn purging. I’ve kept every last thing they have given, even things that could be considered garbage…like the wrapping paper, don’t know why, I just feel a need to have it all.

When we go to the hospital, I spent a very long time slowly unpacking my gifts. She doesn’t like to get gifts. She doesn’t want me giving away my stuff, or spending my money on her….it makes her so very uncomfortable…like I’m taking away from my children or myself. But giving is what relationships are all about. Its not about what you take from a person, and how their chart feeds your needs, but what you give to them, and how your chart and your blessings give them something that they need. Human have an innate need to give and share and help and support. Life itself does, but humans seem to feed more then the ego when they give, its like they are going beyond the person and giving back to the Source directly by honoring the specifc person with just the very thing that they cant supply themselves. Specialness.

I was taught, or maybe it was a dream, that before a human incarnates it makes an agreement with the Source of All to live this incarnation and to experience that potentiality. I believe with all my heart that I agreed to come and be Veronica and experience all this that is my life, all the highs and lows and inbeteweens and the pains and the joys and all of it. I believe I also made agreements with all other people that our lives would interact in one way or another, some very beautifully and others seemingly horrid, and that it was nothing personal but just the Source needing to have every and each potentiality experienced so that it could grow in understanding and compassion and awareness and consciousness.
I was also taught that as the soul incarnates it in a way descends through the planes and encounters “Energies” “Forms” Archetypes in a way, and these archetypes are what we call the planets, each one a specialist, in a way, of an realm of potentials. Mars the potential for action, Venus the potential for attraction, Mercury the potential for Interpretation and so on and as we descend these Archetypes bestow on us gifts to use to help us on our path and our mission and experience. Very much like going on a trip and your mother gives you clean underwear and your father gives you a hundred dollars and your sister give you her teddy bear…..just incase you need it. And as we live our life we sometimes come to events and get to use that hundred dollars dad gave us, or the Strong Ego that the Angular Sun gave.

My bag was packed with things sort of like that, things that I thought as my sister was working through her healing and coping with what was going on that she might need. I brought her toiletries in a beautiful carrying case so she coulf wash and clean and smell good. I brought her books to read, her favorite authors to fill her mind with ideas and things to feed her Virgo mind. She delighted as I gave her a Tarot Deck and her Favorite book the Mystical Qabalah honoring her love for the occult and her Adeptship in understanding the deeper symbolic language that the Universe speaks through. I brought her Crystals to decorate her table, and beautiful feathers to hang up on her blinds to blow in the breeze of her fan and make her smile like she does about that. I brought her the book that I had been inspired to make this past summer for some reason. A book that I crafted from images taken from catalogs and magazines filled, pasted on pages that I had painted and decorated and sprinkled with glitter. This book is full of symbolic thought and feeling and as you turn each page a wordless story unfolds of life bursting forth and seeking expression and finding here on earth a million dreams and beautiful things and possibilities and opportunities for fulfillment. I remember when I was done making the book I looked through it and wanted to make a million copies and send them to all the hospitals in the world so that sick people who had no hope or love and were in pain and suffering could look at the images and let them fill their soul with what ever they personally needed to heal themselves of what ever was ailing them. making that book healed me, and healed my heart and sadness and hopelessness and I shared it, page by page, as I was making it, sending pictures to my Love and wordlessly he let me know he saw them and knew that these weird images were important to me . That acceptance that he showed to my art work was the most beautifully healing feeling I have ever had of being accepted for the weird Unicorn that I am. My sister poured over that book for an hour (its only 22 pages) talking about each little hidden symbol and what was going on and she told her own story through the pictures, just like I had thought the book should be used. Its generic yet personal in a weird way.
She really thoughts that the glow in the dark stars and comets that I taped all over her room were a beautiful idea and loved the soft fleece blanket that I brought to keep her warmer then the stiff hospital blankets. Yet I had one more gift to give her. The one I had though of first. The one that I knew above all things she may truly need more then anything as she embarks on her healing herself and fighting against the illness that manifested over time into this horrible imbalanced state she found herself.
Years ago, decades 1996, my mother the light of our family and love of our lives was diagnosed with cancer and died months later after a short battle. It tore apart our family. My sister lost her life long friend and cheerleader. The woman who understood her and loved her unconditionally. Who anticipated her needs and met them. Karen has never been the same, slowly turning this loss and sadness upon herself, never taking care of her self again, putting everyone’s needs above hers. Never pausing, always working for the poor kids in te city school, or the homeless animals or the women in domestic violence.
People need their mom. There is nothing else in the whole world that we should seek but to be in Unity and onesness with Our Source, with our Mother. If we are at odds with that, we are at odds with Nature itself and nothing but imbalance and illness and suffering can come, and you will have all that you love and cherish and hold in esteem taken from you one by one by one. We are, because She loves us and will always love us and all else is Naught.
I grill cheese a lot. I have so many weird things that say to me….turn here….pick up that….read this…talk to so n so…..this strange impulses and out of the blue inspirations. And I almost always act on them. When I haven’t I always end up saying….oh crude I should have picked up that feather because I could tickle that screaming baby in line at DMV with it……
A few days before my mother started Chemo, she asked me to cut her hair. I always cut her hair. So I did. This time though, I heard that feeling. When I was all done, I swept up my moms beautiful blond locks and put them in a little box and tucked them away. She called me a silly goose for doing that, she saw me sweep them up and put them away. I told her it was because her hair was so soft like a feather and that she knew I had a fetish for holding soft things in my hand and stroking them to comfort me when I am stressed. I do. It’s a thing I do to sooth and calm myself. Silk, fur, hair, skin I have a need to stroke and feel the softness. Ive opened the box over the years and said hello but it isn’t the same, and so I never used it to calm myself. She is in me. I feel that. I can touch her in my heart and I don’t need to feel her hair.

I gave the box to my sister and told her it was the most valuable thing I own and that I have held on to it for years waiting for the right time to pass it on.
She opened the box, and gasped. Tears welled up in her eyes.
She knew what it was with out me ever saying a word.
I did say, “mom always called me her Messy Pup, so Ive always tried to be clean and keep things nice. I couldn’t throw this away. Its more precious then gold and you are gold and you should have it.

We had a great day, laughing and telling jokes like us painfilled people can. All jokes come from pain and in my family get togethers are filled with laughter so hard you will pee yourself. We make jokes and laugh about ourselves and our adventures and experiences and tell stories that outsiders would think horrid and sad and we laugh and laugh and are loud and unruly like good Irish folk are. Laughter is the best medicine they say, it shows us our humanity and binds us in our pain and afflictions and lets us know we are not alone in our suffering. When I die I don’t want tears, I want people to talk about all the crazy out rageose things I have done, like and angular pluto is wont to do not giving a flying Arse about others opinions or getting embarrassed. Don’t cry and be sad but laugh and feel joy that I made a complete jerk out of myself and a fool and risked everything for the man I love and to put a smile on a face and to help lessen the load that life causes us to bear. Its not insensitive, its supersensitive…like me.
Thank you all for the encouragement and lending your wisdom and experience and reading my weird words and all that. I write and write and write to try to show that we are all connected and my experience is not unlike yours and I just cant keep things so deeply felt inside.
My daughter is going to be just fine. Shes got issues and challenges and things to work through.
JSAD talked elsewhere about how she planned out her SSR day and Jim shared how he too in the past had (based on the theory that what happens on that day, is played out symbolically throughout the year) planned his day…..so for my daughters Birthday I made myself completely available to her if her needed, we talked and eat and went to the movies and had a grand day, and she had a few little bumps with her boyfriend, but I think that with our Grilled cheese abilities that we are going to be just fine and even though she may struggle through her life with her consumption habits, that with me available and informed and compassionate and open to her, and with her own strong sense of connection to her Higher power, she is going to have a great life filled with many many things that we will be able to laugh about and make fun of and share.

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Re: Veronica

Post by SteveS » Sun Nov 03, 2019 7:19 am

Wishing you the best Veronica with your "Grilled Cheese" abilities.

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Re: Veronica

Post by Veronica » Sun Nov 03, 2019 9:23 am

Thank you Steve

Im looking forward to the next few months and mopping up after this SSR. I think that next year for my birthday I am buying myself a membership to the YMCA. I have had memberships on and off over the years and enjoy being apart of that institution. In all the years though that I was a member I never did the one thing that I have wanted which is to proficiently swim underwater. I love love love swimming and diving but my asthma and COPD made it challenging for me to do laps like I want. My asthma in the past few years seems to have completely healed as I havnt had an attack at all. Not saying this is like a "bucket list" item but I feel at home and happy swimming and the feeling of weightlessness is blissful for me. I get very self consciousness though in a swimming suit but I think thats normal for people. I think Im old enough and wise enough to push past that fear and embarrassment and take care of my need to release in a healthy way all this built up energy.

Grilled cheese abilities are all about action on feelings and interpretation of impulses. I could have just gone home and never mentioned the dinner plans and in my daughters head she would have just been happy to get what she wanted. But I trust that everything is connected and everything has meaning and we grow by sharing our perception and expierence and impulses....instead of keeping it inside.

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Re: Veronica

Post by Veronica » Sun Nov 03, 2019 4:01 pm

I forgot to mention why I think my Angular Pluto defines my character so strongly.....

After unpacking my Mary Poppins bag for my sister and all the jokes and rauchiness that ensued my sister paused and gazed out tge window at the beautiful view of fall foliage blowing in the breeze. She said I wish I could go outside and feel the fresh air.

To which I said. Its 32 degrees out.
She said she didnt care she loves the cold and 2 weeks inside has been hell.

She has two huge wounds with assorted bags of fluids either coming or going as well as a host of other obstacles prohibiting free movement.

But she has to move. Its viral for your lymphatic system in healing. Her nurse, surprise!, is named Veronica and I went out and told her that I was taking my sister for her walk and I wanted a wheelchair so if she got tired she could sit.

We unplugged this and that and hooked up machines and cords and stuff and she walked her walk. Then she sat in her chair, her throne very much so and I took her outside.

With my daughter and her son in tow we paraded about, Im a very good wheelchair opperator for some reason. I even make a loud beeping noise like a truck when I have to back up. It just natyrally happens. I also take full advantage of ramps and the laws of motion to make my load easier. They do have footpegs like a motorcycle on the back so if you have a significant slope you can hop on and take a ride. Also of course with loud sound effects of happiness.

My sister is a shopper. I think thats a mars/sun thing because the ones I know all love shopping. As we made our way through the hospital we encounted a kiosk set up selling the most beautiful delicate elaborate scarves. I have a fetish for beautiful fabric thats pretty hard core niw that I think of it. Fabric is sensual to the max. She picked out four.
In her room she had told me she didnt care for green, but she picked out for herself a very stunning green. We talk all the time very deeply about symbolism and meaning and attitude, so we had a good laugh at her contradiction which she herself observed.

The man at the kiosk said 70% of his sales goes to anyither shop downstairs which had everything but scarves. Off we went to find it and procure her much desired need for hard candy, which is like gold in a hospital everybody wants some.

Arriving at the store our attention immediately went to the 2nd stiry ceiling where there hung 3 enormous kites of birds, like a million pieces of stained glass in all colors and patterns. Breathtaking. Stained glass art is amazing and my sister and I gave this thing for liking "hanging" things like windchimes and dream catches and kites. Kites can truelly be some of the most beautiful things.

When I looked up and saw them my mind thought that Jim would love these as a symbol of astrology, all the aspects and movements of time being laced up with led and taking flight. Jims chart is a kite, born to fly.

I asked the sales woman how much?
She said they wernt for sale.
I told her everything is for sale in this world for the right price.
I really didnt think they were real glass.
My mind had thought that in this gift shop they had for sale these kites, probably cheap tissue paper. Thats what I wanted.

They were real stained glass birds. 7feet across maybe. Huge. Really expensive.
I laughed at my self for being such a twit with my thoughts on buying them and made the sales lady laugh at me too so there was no hard feelings about my remark of its availability for purchase.

She enjoyed getting her fresh air and the fact that I now had her son push her up all the slopes we had sped down tandum. We returned via an alternative corridor which had three huge blinds for a wall with a plaque. The plaque was the history of the birds and a mention of the artist.

So I opened the blinds. They were dusty. And squeaky. But behind them was the kites flying right in front of you. It was a beautiful view and one that shouldnt be gathering dust. The ladies in the gift shop looked up in horror at me exclaimed how this needs to be open so everyone can see them.

I hope they keep the blinds up and clean the dust of the kites. I told them Id come and do it myself if need be. Hospitals do love volunteers.

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Re: Veronica

Post by Danica » Wed Nov 06, 2019 12:47 am

V, would you share Sabrina's birth data? (and Orion's too - I don't have access to my old database at the moment)
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Re: Veronica

Post by Veronica » Wed Nov 06, 2019 5:12 am

Danica wrote:
Wed Nov 06, 2019 12:47 am
V, would you share Sabrina's birth data? (and Orion's too - I don't have access to my old database at the moment)
Both born at Highland Hospital, Rochester NY

Orion January 16, 2001. 😉 11:41 pm

Sabrina Oct. 22, 2002. 2:22 Am

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Post by SteveS » Wed Nov 06, 2019 5:40 am

Sabrina Oct. 22, 2002. 2:22 Am
:o :) My goodness---all the 2's. 7 2's.

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Re: Veronica

Post by Danica » Wed Nov 06, 2019 11:55 am

Sabrina's chart doesn't strike me as a chart of a potential addict - on the contrary! Although Mo-Ne is there, the most prominent factors are the angular Uranus, along with the Ve-Ju-Mo-Ne.

Venus is very strong - the need for shared affection is great (huge, with the Jupiter), and need for tenderness, harmony, Beauty, in the environment she's a part of, where she abides daily; and this is colored in her psyche with the Saturnian tone (Sun is in Libra and trine Sa as the strongest-by-orb aspect (18'); Venus in Libra, oct Sa 59') - the affection needs are interrelated with survival needs (there's much more to it, of course; am just mentioning the key words). This is an interesting dynamic, with the Uranus so pronounced.
She might easily develop a persona/mask of aloofness and being not-affected emotionally by whatever is happening around her, but it's a self-defense mechanism - she needs gentleness, warmth, and loving attention (both to give and receive) to a much greater degree than most people do; and the Aries Moon and angular Uranus may make it hard to directly express these needs.

I'd expect of this chart to experiment with all kinds of psychoactive substances, but not to develop a habit of dependence, or avoidance-of-reality through it.
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Re: Veronica

Post by Danica » Wed Nov 06, 2019 12:12 pm

P.S. There's tr Ur coming to her Mo-Ne this upcoming year, enters orb in May 2020 and is in effect till Apr 2021 (am looking at the whole transit to both planets, as a single experiential unit) - expect all kinds of crazy 'experiments' :)
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Re: Veronica

Post by Veronica » Thu Nov 07, 2019 9:38 am

Thank you Danica for your insights.
It serves me well to actually look at her natal chart once in a while, instead of her shockingly beautiful self.
She is a mini me in a way with Moon Neptune Jupiter aspecting each other like mine....but hers with Venus producing a whirlwind....

She loves Carbs. Always has. Always will.

Her Mars Mercury Saturn is enormously stronger then it looks. My thundercloud of wonderfulness.

She graduates in May so I have suspected her powerful Uranus to get moving. She actually asked me the otherday if I would let her go to Indonesia. I did not feel comfortable at all giving that the thumbs up.

She is the light of my life and I wish I could give her all the beautiful things she wants. Shes so artistic and creative and loves decorating with beautiful things and making old wore out things beautiful again.

I am blessed. But that Uranus....makes gentle talk challenging but Im always up for a challenge.

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Re: Veronica

Post by Veronica » Thu Nov 07, 2019 2:11 pm

Today was the day........

I swear things moved just enough....

I am so happy. Like insanely happy, like a little kid afain. Im a very very happy person usually and this funk Ive been in just sucked the nixe oura me sometimes.

Today though, while 98% of everyone I met was miserable and complaining and bitter.....I was back to my old obnoxious cheerful on a grey day self.

IT SNOWED!!!
BIG FAT WET HAPPY FLUFFY BEAUTIFUL FLAKES!!

ALL OVER!

I just got back from sledding.
All alone exceot the dear and the setting sun.

I am so excited and happy now and cant wait for more skedding and playing outside and cocoa and blankets and movies and all sorts of good stuff!!!

Im glad Saturn came came squashed my venus and made me so sickly sad. It was a good thing for me so I can understand pain and saddness and troubles we all have and hiw I can just be myself and let my sunshine and moon dance and not be so moody and depressed and scared and feeling ugly.

Looking forward to those freat solar arcs I have coming and my lunar returns and getting all this pent up energy out in my bext SSR!!!!

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Re: Veronica

Post by Veronica » Fri Nov 08, 2019 6:05 pm

So it seems to me that my highly sensitive nature responds very powerfully to transits of Venus (as well as the moon).

Im pretty sure that the reason this time of year....and continuing till my birthday....is my favorite , is because for the almost four months I have venus transiting through most of my natal planets and major midpoints.

While the rest of the year venus moves away to trines and squares and opposition s and Places where I am not feeling the influence as directly as during this time of direct conjunction.

Ill tell ya, being overly sensitive is something that I struggle with. Ive struggled because it makes having relationships hard. Ive tried to rise above my nature and not let things get to me, to make me sad , or hurt or unsure.....all sorts of newage jargon and self help mantras and tough love on myself and arcane philosophy and psychology....so that I can be the calm in the center of the storm and not be swayed by whats going on around me.

But the reason I struggle with all that and that its never clicked is because its not me. I am super uber sensitive and feel things deeply, and nothing, no head game or mantra or psychological trick will change that.

So After yesterdays eurphoric high about snow and how I saw it was because Venus was conjunct my Jupiter/neptune/moon I thought about what was said about knowing whats coming and planning accordingly.

So thats what Im going to do.
Im going to make me a calandar of dates that I know are going to be great days for me...ie..venus is moving conjunct my mars shortly.....that could be a great day for real physical fun....and then venus moves up to my des/midpoint and that will be a super great day because Juputer is there too....and then Venus to venus....and so on around the year marki g dates on my calandar that venus will be conjunct trine square opposite or sextile my anets and major midpoints......and then Im going to try to creatively design fantastically fun beautiful loving affectionate activities/dates/events to do on those specific timez when the universe has allready lined up a great time/good feelings and really capitalize on the moment.

The moon moves to fast for me to think this is doable on that scale. At least right now.

I think doing this calendar is a very constructive way for me to take control of my loving nature and be a much more conscious cocreator in my life.....and this way I will have happy loving events planned that I will obviously be looking forward to and anticipating positively, which espicially in my down times will help me gracefully move through them and not feel like my world is collasping in and Im drowning in my tears.

I think too that doing this calandar and planning something very special to do on those days is also going to help me strengthen my relationships. Not that Im gonna only be with someone when I know Im gonna be elated...and therefor they only see that side of me....but more like I have some very wonderful people who I want to spend quality time with but in the past I seemed to be with them when mars was being a jerk or Pluto made me way to aloof or my moony neptune was to sensitive.

It sure was an absolutely beautiful day yesterday and today. At least it felt like that for me.

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Happy Veterans Day

Post by Veronica » Sun Nov 10, 2019 10:13 am

In Honor of Veteran’s Day and the deeper symbolic meaning of 11/11 I would like to share an insight I had this morning about my relationships and what it means to me to be a Free American and my deep Love for my country and the men and women who have given so much to fight and secure my Right to Be exactly what God made me to be, and for those who do not wear a Uniform but fight none the less for their Freedom to Be themselves. We are all Veterans in the war against oppression and slavery and restriction.

I spent yesterday with my father. He has healed up very well except for the blindness. He is mentally acute and feisty and high spirited as is his nature. He knows his time left on this side of the grass is short and is working his best to make the most of it. My father and I have a long standing repertoire of talking about politics and the state of the worlds affairs. He is, like so many his age, bound in old fashioned traditions that are no longer the norm, and he struggles to hold fast to ways that served his grandfather and father and himself very well. I let him hold them, because I can see that they at one time had great value an merit, and even though my nature as a child was to assert how outdated and obsolete and restricting those views and patterns of behavior are, I now have a respect and admiration for his strength of conviction to uphold his long standing beliefs and ways of doing things. His generation and the ideals and morals that they practiced and lived under will be non existent in a hundred years or less, as is the way of things, everything changes.
My father is a hard core Trump supporter. He embraces the MAGA in part because he is holding fast to ways of thinking and acting that are what make America Great. yet he contradicts himself in what it really is that Makes America Great. He Embraces MAGA because his Gemini Sun is conjunct the USAs sun and he loves his country. But that not where he is in contradiction.
The USA birth chart has an Aquarian Moon.
Now, a while back in a thread about something unrelated, Jim made the statement that Aquarian Moons are the best. Ho ho ho I said to myself, what on Earth is going on to make Jim so boldly declare that one moon sign is indeed better, the best, then all the others. I mean really, some super sensitive people might read that and get all sad and hurt, thinking…. well, I don’t have an Aquarian moon so I must not be that good. Jim has always had utmost respect and tact and tolerance for everything and everyone to be just what they are supposed to be. Even if they are born to be a grade A jerk, he doesn’t judge or belittle or try to change them at all and has spent his life helping people accept their natures and contradictory selves. His life work in Astrology and showing people how their natal chart and its transits and progressions and synastries is a map of their essence is in a very real way changing the world itself and bringing about tolerance and respect and dignity and liberty to souls who feel at odds with the world climate we find ourselves in. He gives to people a way to find self acceptance and understanding and compassion for themselves and for all others. Jim himself does have an Aquarian moon, so he deeply resonates with the Moon Nature of the United States of America and understands the scaffolding that the founding fathers laid for us on that world changing day in 1776……
“In Congress, July 4, 1776.
The unanimous Declaration of the thirteen united States of America, When in the Course of human events, it becomes necessary for one people to dissolve the political bands which have connected them with another, and to assume among the powers of the earth, the separate and equal station to which the Laws of Nature and of Nature's God entitle them, a decent respect to the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to the separation.
We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.--That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, --That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness. Prudence, indeed, will dictate that Governments long established should not be changed for light and transient causes; and accordingly all experience hath shewn, that mankind are more disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same Object evinces a design to reduce them under absolute Despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such Government, and to provide new Guards for their future security.—”

Now, it clearly states in the above quote that once restrictions are to much to bear, they must be cast off. This is where my father, and so many people I know who espouse and love the USA become blind to what this event in history means.

I grew up with my father being afraid of communists, Arabs and Jews. He was of course a product of his times and the fear of the USA being taken over by those groups was an imminent threat. With the advent of nuclear weapons and the ancient ways of warfare in hand to hand combat obsolete it seemed like a possible outcome. Any day the Russians could blow us up, or the Jews shut down the Banks, or the Arabs withholding oil……and then the poor USA would be no more. We would be beaten and destroyed, and all the hopes and ideals and dreams of our founding fathers laid to waste and ruin and nothing but graveyards would remember what was once the Dream of Life Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness for all.

I’m a maverick, a rebel an outlier and a trouble maker…….in my own way. I love my country and the ideals and freedom and liberty that it is founded on. If I want to have sex with a woman, I will, And my country protects my right to do so. If I want to be a witch and dance naked under the full moon, I will, And my country protects my right to do so. If I want to own land and raise pigs….if I want to dream and pretend I am a Unicorn in my heart, I can. If I don’t want to get married, or wear a bra or put sugar in my tea…..I don’t have to. All those rights of my own perspective and opinion on how I should live my life are my own to make. In America I can Be what I was Born to Be and Do What I Will.

My country, this country that I love love love to the ends of time will not crumble and fail because of my choices in my religious beliefs, or my choice not to be religious. It will not crumble if I choose to join a socialist commune and live my life in debauchery. It will not fail and crumble if the choices I personally make in how to live my life are countercurrent and against the norm or populace or long standing traditions.

My father has trouble seeing that. He thinks that the Islamic woman in congress is a direct threat and could topple the whole system. He thinks that by a few small communities teaching Islam in schools that the whole foundation of our country will fail. He feels that if a community espouses a socialists methods that it will catch like wildfire and the whole country will fail.
If one woman in congress can topple our whole system, then our system should be torn down. If one community can topple the whole country then it deserved to be toppled. If one religion can move the hearts and minds of the nation to embrace it then our system deserves to fail.
My greatest fear is to be restricted and held down. No kinky handcuffs for me, no sir bob. Im not having it. that is one sure fire way to get me to flip out and emotionally and physically fight tooth and nail. I will never surrender my Autonomy and my right to be free and do as I will.
If those Russians or Islamic radicals tried to force me to there will, I will die fighting for my right to freedom and to believe in what I hold dear in my heart. I know a million and half “others” who are also as rebellious and feisty and autonomous who would be right there with me fighting for our right to be who we are as individuals and to not be typecast and pigeon hold and slaves to a master.

What my father is blind to, is the fact that the Declaration of Independence demands that every single person be allowed their own path. Even if my father thinks and holds the opinion that what they believe and do is wrong, our country was founded on the Ideal that all paths be respected and allowed to run its course. He is entitled to his beliefs and I would fight for his right to believe that “all” communists are bad. That’s who my father is, those are his characteristics and his way of living and finding his happiness. I would too though fight for any individuals right to be who they are, even if I personally find what they do and believe horrible and contrary to my own nature.

I recently have been thinking about all the people that I love and like and the very very few people who I actually do not like, at all, who rub me wrong and get on my nerves and just make me upset. I pretty much get along with everyone and can look past conditioned behaviors and cultural limitations and sex roles. There was one person in particular who I met who I just don’t like. The minute I heard his name before I even met him I didn’t like him. That’s not like me and it deeply bothered me. I tried to reconcile this with saying things to myself like, you don’t like him because of how he bad talks woman, and talks bad about you behind your back and to your face and is abusive and uses people and hurts and steals and lies and thinks he is such a bad aff and all of that and a bag o chips…… and as I heard myself saying this I though about what those statements meant in turns of his natal chart and his synastry with me. So I looked at his chart. Just as I suspected. His sun was conjunct my Mars, his Scorpio sun hitting on my mars just mad me mad. But then Low and behold…..My sun, was also conjunct his Mars…..so the feeling is very mutual. It hurt me to think that I could be so easily swayed by another person, but of course there were other aspects and things to point out in the synastry that made me just say…well you don’t like everybody and everybody isn’t going to like you. You don’t have to kill him, you don’t have to be around him you can just let it be what it is.

Its like that with the chart of the USA.
My synastry with the USA chart was breathtaking as I looked at for the first time this morning.
I am very emotional about the USA and its 3 major holidays always brings out my deep love and respect and admiration and gratitude and feeling of blessed love for being born a free woman in America. I cry like a baby on the $th of July, Memorial Day and Vetrans day. Tears of sadness for loss of life and tears of joy for what those lives manifested.
The USAs sun is directly opposite my natal Venus. (my sun moon midpoint)
The USAs moon is conjuct my sun
My Uranus aspects USAs Sun
My Moon/Neptune/Jupiter Conjunction aspects the USAs Pluto
And low and behold my mars/venus Dec midpoint is opposite the USAs mars and venus midpoint.
There is actually almost more to say about the synastry of these two charts and why I deeply feel for my country and I suppose as well why my country loves little rebels and freaks like me…..(USAs Venus aspects my Sun).

The composite chart of my relationship with the USA is also remarkable to me……Sun and Mercury conjunct….Trine a conjunct Mar/Jupiter….Trine the moon. Venus and Chiron are conjunct square the moon and trine Uranus.

In the Synastry of my chart with the USA was something I was not thinking I would find, and that was the USAs Saturn aspecting square my Venus as well as conjunct my Uranus. That’s a powerful aspect and I feel it most positively. I think with this years transmutation of saturnian energies though I can better understand how that influence has always been like a backbone for me, something my loving nature always fell back on to get strength from. For while I call myself a rebel and maverick it is not that I was acting selfishly and just willy nilly doing what ever I wanted in a destructive way. My love of the occult and its teaching was never to gain power over others or influence them against their will….but my own desire to be true to my heart and my own passions. My love for “bad Boys” and outcasts and undesirables was not from a place of making myself look better or being smart or more then, but from a place of compassionately understanding their own unique nature and individuality and wanting to support and help them stand tall against oppression and restriction and be a smile on a dark day when all hope seems lost. That’s Saturn strength and resilience and teaching that Love is the Law of Nature, the love of each to be its own freakyself …… what ever that maybe.

Its hard for my dad to understand that some people are just not going to like the USA. That like my chart with that mans soul mars/sun mars/suns….its just not going to mesh. That man has every right to not like me, he has every right to honor the feelings that he has against me, even though he may never understand just what it is about me that doesn’t make him at ease.
I am not going to try to make him like me, and in the USA we cant try to make people who have adverse reactions to the USA chart feel any other way. It is what it is. If you don’t like it, and the bigger picture of Life Liberty and Happiness for all, even if they make you angry, fearful or sad…..then no one is making you stay. It is a free country and no one is forcing you to stay.

The USA chart has what I like to call the golden ticket in the back pocket, Venus conjunct Jupiter. What a blessing that is. I do believe that Divinity had a hand in the formation of our country with that aspect. That is the most beautiful feeling of all. Its like the finest tapestry woven of pure golden thread….our Flag, Old Faithful to the max. I know what that feels like because I was blessed with a relationship that gave birth to a composite chart with Venus conjunct Jupiter and I never felt happier and more blessed and when I am down and out I go into my heart where I keep the memories of it alive and bask in remembering all the great and wonderful moments that I had actively involved in that relationship and they life me up to the clouds and put a skip in my step. Our country was created to be the most beautiful noblest blessed and loving country. A benevolence of affection towards all…..as the Statue of Liberty has inscribed upon Her.
“Not like the brazen giant of Greek fame,
With conquering limbs astride from land to land;
Here at our sea-washed, sunset gates shall stand
A mighty woman with a torch, whose flame
Is the imprisoned lightning, and her name
Mother of Exiles. From her beacon-hand
Glows world-wide welcome; her mild eyes command
The air-bridged harbor that twin cities frame.

"Keep, ancient lands, your storied pomp!" cries she
With silent lips. "Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!"[

For a long time I had been worried about the world. As an Aquarian I probed deeply and thoroughly into things and uncovered all sort of secrets and hidden things that seemed to me to be a direct threat to the USA. Secret committees and organizations and Gold mongers and hidden motives and agendas. When I heard that Donald Trump was running for office and that he got his major news from Alex Jones and the conspiracy theorists I hoped that he would expose all the strawmen and under nasties and bring to light things that seemed to want to rip apart this country. I knew that as a business man he was well advised and had an insight into these things, if a girl like me can dig and find things out then for sure so could a powerful double hub like trump get to the bottom and really drain the swap like he said. Yet looking at Trumps chart to the USAs I don’t see any desire to really do anything good for the USA but keep the status quo, the rich friends getting richer and the poor getting poorer. He actually has undone much progress and set back many programs and done nothing to stop the Rockafellas and Morgans. Yet I have this unwavering faith in the cosmos to do what needs to be done and while I am angry about how he lifted the ban on old forest cutting and all sorts of environmental laws and offended just about every body, He cannot destroy our Union. He was elected to serve as a release of age old ideas and beliefs and things no longer fitting us, and I think his election in a very real way was a sort of mopping things up for the USA to move on and past, and kind of give a last huzaaa for certain beliefs that served a purpose at the time but whose time has come to lift those oppressive beliefs and be free of them. Like my father who is his age peer, he is bound with his fears of being oppressed and defeated and concurred and enslaved. He too holds tight to his dream of the golden age of America and the illusion of power and freedom that it held, but in reality that dream that my father has of America is of a time of Bigotry and misogyny and prejudice and oppression and sexism and racism and classism and restricting basically everyone who isn’t a WASP man. That’s not what the Chart of the USA is.

I have long thought about Craigs love of America which seems so contrary to the life he has led. I would watch him watch the news of the beheadings and feel his anger and sadness and passion and it is one of the most powerful feelings I have ever been around. Jupiter SAD said that our relationship had nothing to build on. But I looked deeper and I think that we both have something deeper entangled into our relationship and that is our passion for our country and our own autonomy. That relationship can not be destroyed by the daily weather. It is built to last and while it has ups and downs and strong strong feelings there is true love and it will always be our golden ticket. My sun is opposite Craigs strongest midpoint of his moon/mars/Sun and his venus/pluto where his mercury sits. I thought that was awesome and a beautiful thing for me to bring into his life to help support him. but I think that Craigs deepest love, is not me and my sun, but the fact that where my sun is is where the USAs best placed Aquarian moon is, which blesses him with the gift of true love for all people and the ability to treat people as they need to be treated. I can only imagine the real depth of love he has for America and how in his own way he has spent his life doing what he does best with his nurturing cancer self, like the Statue of Liberty…..embracing the ones no one else will.

I hope that everyone takes a moment tomorrow to say a blessing and give thanks to all Veterans and fighters for the oppressed. Its not everyday that something as Magickal as the USA is brought forth into this world.

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