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2019 SSR - Pregnancy?

Post by Freya » Thu May 16, 2019 5:13 am

Here is my upcoming 2019 SSR based in Southampton, England. I am looking at this to find whether I will have a baby or not next year, as the current SSR has brought miscarriage.

Not sure I like the look of this one either, as the moon receives aspects from saturn and neptune, the effects of which have manifested in a miscarriage, but also jupiter and pluto, which should indicate conception. Uranus and venus are also there, with uranus foreground, which hopefully should bring positive change?

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Post by Jim Eshelman » Thu May 16, 2019 7:15 am

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Thu May 16, 2019 5:13 am
Not sure I like the look of this one either, as the moon receives aspects from saturn and neptune, the effects of which have manifested in a miscarriage, but also jupiter and pluto, which should indicate conception. Uranus and venus are also there, with uranus foreground, which hopefully should bring positive change?
Don't worry about Moon trine Saturn. It will be psychological more than eventual. Quite the opposite, SSR Moon is opposite Neptune, true, but also square Jupiter! Moon-Jupiter is 0°09', the closest hard aspect in the chart.

Generally, this is a very positive emotional tone and something to celebrate. Like everything, there are potential negative expressions, e.g., Jupiter-Neptune optimism can be unrealistic (not founded on fact), or Moon-Neptune (in the case of success) likely will swing you through some unexpected hormonal swings.

My biggest concern is Mars square MC and the culminating Uranus. Yes, this could be symbolism of a miscarriage, though that's not the only outcome. I think the message, then, is not to leave anything to chance that you can control, then go with the Jupiter-Neptune faith (confidence not dependent on reason) to carry you the rest of the way.

You said you wanted to try again around September. That might be bad timing. We probably should do lunar returns and watch transits to pick a best time or rat least double-check that time. What I notice, though, is that September is when Solar Return Moon progresses to the exact opposition to Neptune. There are several Moon-Neptune keywords that paint undesirable outcomes at exactly that point in time (although if you were already pregnant, it might just be normal hormonal swings).
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Post by Freya » Thu May 16, 2019 7:40 am

Thank you Jim for the insight that you have provided. Electional astrology is definitely beyond my skills, but if there is something I can control is exactly WHEN I will go for treatment.

This time I have chosen a clinic in Greece (in Athens) which seems to have all the latest tech to choose sperm with healthy DNA, which the previous clinic did not have. (Coincidentally I think I have a better relocated natal chart in Greece rather than Norway). The paradox here is that I am healthy and my eggs are graded excellent. It is my husband who has a fertility issue. Would it be wise to look at his chart too in order to select timing?

At this point I have learned my lesson, I am not going through another IVF cycle without having looked at my chart first. I was thinking September because plane tickets are cheaper, but I am not going to jeopardise my chances for a couple of hundred dollar's difference. I don't think my demi solar in October looks promising, which probably means I should do this on the first quarter of my next SSR?


Any help on how to seltect the best timing would be a precious gift for me, and also a good study on how powerful astrology really is in a person's life. Tecnically my body should "reset" in late June/July, if that is better timing to start the ball rolling again?

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Post by Freya » Fri Jun 21, 2019 3:42 am

My biggest concern is Mars square MC and the culminating Uranus. Yes, this could be symbolism of a miscarriage, though that's not the only outcome.
Jim can this be the symbolism for divorce? It looks like we are headed that way at the moment, we are both drifting apart. If things don’t improve come September we are filing the petition because he doesn’t want to go ahead

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Re: 2019 SSR - Pregnancy?

Post by Arena » Fri Jun 21, 2019 4:03 am

Is it possible that trying to get pregnant has simply put too much stress/strain on your relationship? Would it be wise to sit back and not try that for a while now, since your relationship is not stable at this time?

The Mars-Uranus aspect is imo not indicative of a divorce.
But the Mer-Mar conjunction in the SSR can be indicative of quarreling.
The fact that the Sat-Pluto conjunction in the SSR has your n. Venus on the opposing midpoint and the SSR IC falls onto your n. Pluto as well as the SSR Moon being aspected by both Saturn and Neptune is extremely separative in nature altogether. SSR Jup is there to help you though, being the midpoint between the Moon-Nep opposition. It will bring you grace and compassion.

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Post by Freya » Fri Jun 21, 2019 4:12 am

Yes we are taking a step back however it has transpired that he doesn’t want to try again at all (going back on everything he promised) Unless he changes his mind, we are headed for a separation as not having children is not a sacrifice I am willing to make. I pray to God it won’t come to that. I am hoping Jupiter will have a healing effect

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Re: 2019 SSR - Pregnancy?

Post by Arena » Fri Jun 21, 2019 6:56 am

Bringing a child into the world is such a huge commitment and therefore a huge decision and should never be made under pressure. Maybe a time out from trying is what he needs now, without being accused of going back on his promises. Just a break from the process. Maybe going through what you've gone through has stirred things up and puts pressure on both of you. Maybe you need to enjoy your love without a baby for a while. I don't know if this rings true in your situation ... they are just a few maybes to think about.

You're only 35.

I was 37 and 38 when I had my two younger children and I would not have wanted to be any younger. I know that people are "ready" at different ages in their lives. I also know that I would never have been "ready".

I also know it is not my place to tell you what to do. I am just sharing a perspective.

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Post by Jim Eshelman » Fri Jun 21, 2019 7:18 am

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My biggest concern is Mars square MC and the culminating Uranus. Yes, this could be symbolism of a miscarriage, though that's not the only outcome.
Jim can this be the symbolism for divorce? It looks like we are headed that way at the moment, we are both drifting apart. If things don’t improve come September we are filing the petition because he doesn’t want to go ahead
Well, yes, it could to that way, but it wouldn't be my first impression. If it were manifesting in that part of your life, I would phrase it more in terms of fighting and similar eruptions - it can be temperamental, it can give a sense of not being a much in control of your life as you want or need.

But I wouldn't jump to that conclusion too quickly. As important as this one item is to the two of you, is it enough to split your marriage? I see in your subsequent post that not having children is a sacrifice you're not willing to make (your chart is indeed consistent with wanting this strongly), so maybe it is enough to split you... but the real marital weakness at the moment sounds like a communication / partnership problem.

Your words suggest to me that the issue is the "drifting apart," which feels like a communication issue. Communication issues are correctable by communicating! It wounds like there is pain and disappointment that you really aren't sharing as partners.
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Re: 2019 SSR - Pregnancy?

Post by Jim Eshelman » Sat Jun 22, 2019 5:23 pm

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Here is my upcoming 2019 SSR based in Southampton, England. I am looking at this to find whether I will have a baby or not next year, as the current SSR has brought miscarriage.
It occurred to me that we could address the moment of this post as a question for horary astrology. First, though, there is the question of where, in your life and the universe, you were at the time of posting it.

The question was posted May 16, 2019, 1:13 PM PST, in Southampton, UK. The first two things I notice is that there was an alignment of the universe with your essential self, a return of some very basic things to their natal patterns. For one, Moon had just passed its natal position by 4 or 5 degrees - more on the Lunar Return in a moment. For another, Midheaven at the time of the question was less than a degree from your natal Midheaven: the sky was oriented much as it was when you were born.

There are two further suggestions that this was a "moment of self," a moment when your fundamental relationship to your life (as currently understood) was accentuated. They both involve the Sun. First, the question was asked with Sun at Midheaven (and LOL was technically a question about your Solar Return. Furthermore, transiting Sun was about 1° from square your Southampton Ascendant.

The question came as the universe demanded some soul-searching and confrontation of a sadness. Natally you have a 0°19' Moon-Venus conjunction, the keenest symbol in your chart for a deep demand that you be a mother. At the time of the above post, transiting Saturn was 0°13' from opposite your Venus and 0°32' from square your Moon. To (perhaps overly) simplify, you were in a process of feeling loss of motherhood.

Within Saturn's transit to your Moon-Venus, you also had transiting Mars opposite natal Neptune, only 0°06' wide when you posted. This is a transit that usually leaves a deep emotional wound, apparently the trigger or eruption of the soul-crisis defined by Saturn to Moon-Venus - the trigger that prompted you to turn to the charts and to post.

Sun, as mentioned was entering orb of square your local Ascendant. Venus had just left opposition to your Pluto. The skies then rotated back to the alignment they had at your birth, your own Midheaven being on Midheaven while you were in the middle of posting and just crossing the angle as you clicked Submit.

I think it important that we, in responding, understand where you were psychologically at the time of your post and I apologize for not doing so originally.
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Post by Jim Eshelman » Sat Jun 22, 2019 5:37 pm

Your Sidereal Lunar Return occurred May 16 at 6:55 AM, about 6 hours before your post. In general, it's a great chart, with Jupiter a mere 0°04' from Descendant, though Mars rises opposite the Jupiter; and Sun was in Eastpoint. There are a number of fine points, and all the transits mentioned above were in partile orb. I think we might regard it as a chart for taking positive action, taking hold of the situation, etc.

That clears the slate - identifies where you stood in the universe at that moment - and clears the way for looking at this as a horary chart, using the "rational horary" approach I've suggested here in the past, i.e., still relying primarily on what we have already established as valid astrological principles without descending into the morass of historic horary approach - but with a little more focus on houses and with a different mindset toward the question.

On the direct question, "Will I have a baby?" the charts are not optimistic, though they have more to say than that one question, i.e., there is a larger framework within which the question exists. Looking at the chart, we see one powerful, proud symbol: Leo rises, with Sun close to Midheaven on the 9th house side. This is a strong symbol of personal dignity and a demand for self-actualization or self-fulfillment. That it falls in the house of foreign travel is consistent with our other discussions about travel abroad for the procedure, among other things, but its position on Midheaven closely trine Pluto is a great sign of positive transformation.

But this doesn't address the question itself. For this, we especially look at where Moon falls and her aspects, and also at the house of the subject matter. For pregnancy and delivery this means the 5th house. Here is why I said the signs weren't positive, for the 5th house has a Saturn-Pluto conjunction in it suggesting solitude, hardship, and loss. Furthermore, the Saturn-Pluto conjunction (especially Pluto) closely squares Moon. These, by traditional symbolism, would mean, "No pregnancy."

We could take the position that these aspects are separating and therefore only show the past circumstances. Given how close the Moon-Pluto aspect, and how exactly the symbolism matches the question, I wouldn't rely too heavily on that: As a partile aspect, it seems to be talking about the present.

I might be wrong about that, though. Normally we would look at Moon's next aspects. (Digression: I place no confidence in the traditional "voice of course" rules, the doctrine that if Moon makes no more aspects before leaving her current sign, then "nothing will come from the matter." I place no confidence in it because all the claims for the rule have been made based on the Tropical zodiac which doesn't exist. Therefore, there has been no actual research to validate this and the popularity of the rule reeks of fiction.) Anyway... looking forward, if we ignore the Void of Course rule, Moon's next aspect is a Moon-Venus opposition, applying by 6°46'. This is a marvelous sign for pregnancy if we are to trust it; and Venus even conjoins Uranus on the 9th cusp, interweaving themes of technology, happy surprises, and foreign travel.

My use of this more rational approach to horary astrology is too new for me to speak with authority on whether we should trust this quite happy aspect. If it is valid, then Moon progresses to oppose Venus in November with a new surprise (Moon opposite Uranus) by about the first of the year.

So that's what I've got. I'm sorry I can't give a definitive answer, and at least we can learn something from this. I do know, though, that the moment you posted your inquiry was a moment that concentrated great anguish and, arising from it, something in you committing to greater self-unfolding and self-understanding whatever the outcome.

At least, that's what I see this chart telling us.
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Re: 2019 SSR - Pregnancy?

Post by Freya » Wed Jun 26, 2019 12:00 pm

Jim, Thank you so much for the interpretation of the charts. I feel that I am at a crossroads at the moment, and for one step forwards I take two steps back. Because I have been unwell due to the miscarriage, my employer has put me on probation again and I may vey well lose my job in the next two months. So it never rains but it pours. Without a job there is no going to Greece for IVF. Things at home with my husband aren't great, he's psychologically weak (nepute foreground in his chart doesn't help) and I feel the strain of acting like a mother to his children when I haven't got any myself; just a reminder of what I am missing (they treat me like I don't exist whilst I sacrifice as if they were mine). Money is tight and with a second job I get no time to rest. I am running on empty.

I am acutely aware that I have a sun-saturn transit in August, if I lose my job it is going to be incredibly hard to a find a new one. I don't love my current job, it's underpaid and I do adminsitratibe and repetitive tasks (I wasted my law degree and a masters degree on a job that requires basic literacy skills) but it pays the mortgage and that is the only reason why I want to keep it (been looking elsewhere ever since I started in December but with no sucess at interview)

I feel stuck in a rut. I want things to change. So far, everything in the solar year 2019 has been one failure after another. I hope the change will be positive and not destructive (i.e. not being able to pay my mortgage and losing the house too). I bought the house I am in because I could see a baby taking his/her first steps in this house, now it seems empty and I am working to just have a place to crash, it is a house and not a home.
I want a baby more than anything else. I feel so alone. I keep going but I don't know for what. I started antidepressants as for the first time ever in my life I self-harmed, but did not have the guts to commit suicide (I have read too many books on the afterlife of suicides, I don't want to take the risk that they may actually be true). So I keep going and keep existing.

I hope your first interpretation is the correct one. I need hope at the moment and I am clinging on to every bit of light at the end of the tunnel as I have lost the confidence in my abilities.

Thank you for giving me hope

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Re: 2019 SSR - Pregnancy?

Post by Veronica » Thu Jun 27, 2019 3:25 pm

Freya,
Im so sorry you are going through all of this.
I hope that you have strong support system in your life and a healthy outlet for stress. Stress produces adrenalin and when a womans body is flooded with that it makes it hard to concieve, I know bc I tried to have a baby with Craig but I was under too much stress. I raised two step children and got pretty much the same attitude and have no dealings with them now that they are grown. I loved/ love them dearly. Sometimes I truly struggle with feeling alone and try to comfort myself with the belief that God is always with me and my loved ones are in my heart and sometimes that really helps. Sometimes feeling alone though gives you an opportunity to pause on your life and make effective changes in attitude and perceptions so that you can see what it is that you really need and then go after it more efficiently.
I hope that all the pain and saddness goes away for you and you feel better soon.

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Post by Freya » Sun Jul 07, 2019 2:20 am

I have just stared at the clock announce 10.04 am... welcoming this new SSR

I need a change. This time it will be a radical change in terms of my profession. I had no idea that this would be what Mars-Uranus would bring at the time of writing this thread.

Since my miscarriage my boss has become suspicious that I will get pregnant again and has made my life hell at work. She’s trying to find evidence to dismiss me which she cannot yet find, because my work has been faultless. By the environment has changed and I have noticed that one particular colleague, who is close to her, is deleting or hiding work that I have done. My request for a promotion taking effect in 2021 has been denied too. It has become unbearable to go to work knowing that at some point during the day I have to dig up evidence that I have done things right.

I am fed up to be a paralegal, which is all they can offer me (not even that as it has been suggested that I am back on probation). My mentor at work thinks it’s outrageous and I am being bullied and I should raise it with HR. So now, if I lose my job I definitely am not having IVF.

I believe the universe is trying to tell me something. I have been unhappy in that job for some time now, but didn’t look for anything else.

I have now decided not to work in a law firm anymore. It is a big u-turn for my life path, having obtained the qualifications. But I am making rich people richer and getting mistreated in the process.

I have two interviews for two completely different jobs now. One of them especially is in social care. If I were offered either of these positions it is definitely a symbolism consistent with Mars-Uranus. I feel like I am steering a great big cargo ship away from the course it had taken for the past 7 years

I hope it will bring radical but positive change

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Re: 2019 SSR - Pregnancy?

Post by Arena » Sun Jul 07, 2019 8:48 am

Happy birthday again Freya :)
I hope your day was a good one.

I understand how you feel to just be watching the clock for a new solar return to start and bring about something new :) I had a Mars-Uranus concurrent on angles in my SSR two years ago and nothing happened that could be related to Mars-Uranus at all. Nothing. That year the tropical return was the return that really described the year perfectly with its Moon-Saturn symbolism on the angle and I fell into a long long and deep depression. Now I always check them both because I know there is truth to both systems.

I hope that you find a way to do work that you find more satisfying. It wouldn't surprise me if that turns out to be some kind of social work or idealistic work when I see your solar arc angles. Your solar arc IC is now on your n. Neptune and your solar arc ASC is squared by n. Jupiter. Solar arc Pluto is now square your n. ASC and I also see that solar arc Uranus is opposite your n. Sun = changes are most certain. You might also choose to do some more studies since your solar arc Mercury is now on your n. ASC.

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Post by Veronica » Sun Jul 07, 2019 11:47 am

Something Ive felt about Mars Uranus stuff...

It can be a time when the Universe is in the drivers seat. So often it can seem like nothing.
It also IME can be time when you are actively involved in something else, ie...many lovers (or hobbies and interests) meet/arise while they have this going on and they are allready involved with someone (or something).

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